picking the meat off the bone of my weekend

I feel the urge to write about this topic, because no matter who I voice it to I can never quite make sense of it.

1. Sympathy
2. Nurse
3. Frustration

I do not do well in situations where I should feel pity, sympathy or sorrow for someone who is sick with a non-life threatening illness. It's almost like I do not have the necessary gene or chemical in my brain to bring about the proper response. Furthermore, I am a horrible nurse and always have been. I truly feel as if I lack something that should make me want to take care of those who need my pseudo-medical assistance. On top of these two obvious flaws, I also become frustrated when others coddle people to death when they are manageable ill.

Granted, I am not the type of person who is sick very often and have been remarkably healthy all of my life so I have a hard time relating to sickness, but I just cannot muster up those feelings towards those who are under the weather.

For me, I look at being sick as a 50/50 state. 50% is physical and 50% is mental/emotional. Undeniably, there are some situations where not becoming sick is not an option, (ie. a room full of sniffing toddlers) but I truly try to stay has healthy as possible. Part of that is making a sincere effort of keeping a good mindset about being sick. I want to be healthy, so I think that I am healthy. Vice versa, those who think that they are sick or think that they are becoming sick, usually do. I understand it that since our brain controls basically every movement, thought, involuntary action and just about everything else, how could it not help to prevent illness as well.

If I am sick, I will admit that I am not feeling well and allow myself to just exsit as sick for a short while until I feel better. My body is telling me that I am in need of something and therefore I just should just relax and let it take over.

I do not know if I am completely crazy for thinking that part of being healthy is having a healthy outlook on being, well... healthy. I think of our bodies as a single unit; working as one all of the time. Just look how stress effects the body: if one aspect of your life is stressful you may grind your teeth at night, gain or lose weight, have a hard time paying attention, frequently forget how to do normal tasks, lash out on loved ones as well as a number of other symtoms. Therefore it only makes sense to me that if a relatively simple thing like stress effects us in such a drastic way, how can having a poor perception of personal healthy be anything but what it is. Simply stated, if you think good, good will come to you and visa versa.

Please do not think of me as too harsh or cras. I do love those ones around me and want them to be as happy and healthy (in all aspects) as possible, but I become so annoyed with people who have such a poor outlook on being sick and just as much frustration for those who coddle and feed into such negativity.

I am sorry if I have offened anyone - feel free to let me know if I have. I'd love to hear your opinons and views, they only allow me to expand my horizons and become a more compassionate person.