sometimes....

Sometimes I think life is cheating on me... You know—it's horrible feeling in your gut when you just know something is wrong, but can't figure out what it is and then all of a sudden it happens and you confirm what you've known all along. 

I do really try to keep my posts upbeat and happy, but lately it has been increasingly difficult to continue the happy-go-lucky type of attitude when I'm not so happy nor have I been so lucky. 

The scientist inside tells me that speaking in terms of probability, something good has to happen eventually. The optimist within tells me everything will be O.K. The spiritualist reasons that there is a balance to all parts of life; specifically that there is a time to reflect and a time to act. However, it is the Believer in me that truly knows that whatever I am going through, good, bad or indifferent, at this point in time does indeed have it's purpose and life is going along just the way it is supposed to. 

I know that I sound a friggin Hallmark card and I apologize... 

P.S. — I can't seem to lose like these 2 pesky pounds I've been hanging on to since last month... grrr. I think my words to a co-worker summed it up yesterday. As I'm walking out the door to go the B & N for lunch across the street, I put on my sunglasses and said out loud, "I'm having a Jackie O type of day!" She joyfully agreed much to my delight. While this was initially in reference that my dress, hair and sunglasses were of 'Jackie O' likeness, I was really feeling like the world was not being very fair to me at the present moment and as I forcefully place my oversized, yet classic sunglass on my face I was actually hiding behind them because those are just the types of days I've been havin! 

P.P.S. — If at this very moment you're thinking about stalking me, just stop right now. Thanks, but no thanks...